Monday, November 28, 2011

Years from now..

I want to look back on my life one day and say that I was alive... And I tried.
.. I really tried...
I never turned my back on anything or anyone...I poured my heart into everything I did.. I fought hard for the things I wanted..I set my goals high.. chased endless dreams...I loved beyond boundaries and expectations.. I found peace in all the simple things.. I smiled when I could have frowned.. laughed when I should've cried..
.. Took chances after chances.. I lived by faith... befriended the lost.. embraced the lonely.. I stayed humble.. worked hard and played hard.. But most importantly.. I was happy. I found complete happiness.

Our plans were only sketches.. Nailed to a wall to collect dust

The hardest time Ive ever faced in my life is saying hello for the first time and goodbye for the last..

You came into my world of black and white and changed it to neon vivid kaleidoscopic color. You put stars in my eyes and set my skin on fire simply with a smile. My love for you has no limit, no fear, no delusion, no doubt, no expiration date and no expectation other than its existence. The whole world surrounding disappears whenever Im near you.. even in my distant day-dream imagination. Youre my secret hiding place.. the one love I get lost within.. my safe and silent saving grace. You blur the lines between my dreams and my waking into the same thing. Every song, sunrise, smile, reflection of stars against the lake, or any beautiful thing makes me see your face. Youre a blessing and a vision of truth. You take my heart with you everytime you leave in hopes that you'll always bring it back to me. Jet planes still arent fast enough to bring you back to me. You are beautiful inside and out in every sense of the word if you simply allow yourself to be. Youre just too vibrant to hold onto...too set free.. yet at the same time too blind to see any of that... because the tighter I hold onto you the faster I smother the flame. I feel Helpless because it doesnt matter how much of myself I pour into you.. it will never be enough. I can never make you see yourself in the same way I do. You come through the door like a bag of rocks.. wounded all the time.

You will never hear me say this was all a waste of time because it wasnt...far from it... but time is not on our side. I think you need to give yourself time to learn to love yourself first before you can move forward. Youre so quick to throw your hands up at such simple things but life isnt about money, or fame, or our illusions of endless working.. its simple.. its about the smallest of things.. like us and it always has been. I'd love to be your escape route every time you need me to be but it's always the same uneasy feeling I get when I snap back to reality and realize that Im only here for the moment.. nothing less and nothing more. I could tell you in endless ways that I could fix it, fix you, fix us and i could keep putting bandages over all those cuts and scars that bind your heart like chains.. and I could keep knocking down the walls over and over and over.. While you keep building them and I could literally give my every ounce of energy to you.. gladly.. but in the end it will always have the same result until you love yourself first. I need you to see what I see. Then you can learn to push away everything and everyone bad for you and learn to hold on tight to everything good. You can learn to love all over again and learn to fall in love the right way and the right person will be there to catch you when you do. Dont ever give up on yourself, who you are, what you love or what you want to be even while you keep them hidden.. I can't change the past with us or the past that has brought you here and I can't lose what's left of myself trying to make you see all the good things that are waiting after the storm. It takes trust and true believing. Believe in who you are and take back all the happiness and love that belongs to you that you've let gracefully slip away and love yourself first and watch all the doors open to all the right things.
And with no regrets..While time is against us.. I'm letting us go..

I will love you always. Never forget that even when you forget me. Xoxo

Blue sky.. when you gonna learn to rain?
let yourself go blue for once..and let go of that weight.. youve been carrying..
I can take care of you but only if you want...
I'm strong enough to carry you across the icy lake..
.. but i cant fight your blues..
Cuz i know ill lose whats left of my mind..
I cant win..
..but for you
i will try..
My baby blue..

I'll always remember the day your eyes changed colors.. just like the reflection of the day. As the color changed in your eyes.. I saw straight into your heart. Right then I knew that in that moment of nothing less than perfection... my heart was no longer mine to keep.. it was yours to take.

Goodbye my love. Xoxo

Saturday, January 9, 2010

2010 Came to Slap Everyone in the Face

What have you done? Another year over, a new one just begun.
John Lennon Quote Pictures, Images and Photos

Well lets see....
Is it just me or did 2010 just show up out of the blue?  It could possibly be that I just keep getting older and you know what they say: "the older you get, the faster time goes by."
(once again I've made a reference to "they" and I have no idea who the "they" guys are.)
Speaking of these no-name fact makers... I dont usually like any of the facts that "they" have suggested.
For example like this one:
I mean who in their right mind ever liked this saying...granted its probably true but still..
Why so negative..geez!

  I would write a memo, if "they" ever turned out to have names. 

The Memo would read something like this:

Dear Bogus Fact Makers of Lies,
Did you know that all of your facts, which by the way should NOT technically be called facts... are extremely lame? Yup, they are and I think you all lie and thats not right!


sure do which I realize is completely unrelated and probably uncalled for. 
 my fault.

A quick recap of 2009:

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOSHHHHH! ...ahh yes its all coming back to me..

Moved into an amazing apartment right in town close to all of my favorite things.
starbucks Pictures, Images and Photos
Oh yeah there is a starbucks not even a mile from me, a movie theater, grocery store, blockbuster, lots of good clothing stores, and a best buy.  What else could I possibly need?

Came to many realizations of who I am, what I'm capable of, whats important, and how to push myself when I need to.
Direction Quote Pictures, Images and Photos

Met a boy, then another, then another, then another, and then a few more.......and repeat.
Stupid Boys Pictures, Images and Photos

Reunited with a best friend I grew up with and realized that sometimes the amount of time that passes between friends doesn't matter at all.  You can always pick up right where you left off.
I love good friends...
Still doing what we do...

Met tons of new people, made awesome friends, lost a few, loved hard, laughed tons, played tough, tested strength, learned what having faith really means, and gave it my all.
Faith Hope and Love Pictures, Images and Photos

Saw tons of amazing concerts!
ROCK ON!!! Pictures, Images and Photos

Welcomed much change with open arms instead of running from it
quotes Pictures, Images and Photos

Made many memories that will remain with me forever, even if they only fade to a frozen picture in time.
Time Of You Life

Cabin, girls, a few cameras, a bathroom.. it always happens..

"She came in through the bathroom window...protected by a silver spoon...." -Beatles
If it seems like we take a lot of pics in the bathroom.. well... I'm beginning to realize that.
Beachtime and peace signs..

Made it through the night with our dignity still in tact.
Believe it or not.
When the shades get put on, we mean business!

were so not...I'm kidding!
We do silly things, but youre still not better than us.
And it goes on and on and on..

Here's to the future and new memories...
because you never know..
-it could happen..
This year is gonna be a good year! I just know it 'cos I feel it. 

If In Doubt
Until next time,
Sheree :-)

Saturday, December 12, 2009

If you dont have random thoughts, what do you have..

My thoughts run 100 million miles every second of every minute and usually consists of a mixture of useless knowledge and complete randomness.
Like my own personal light bulb that never turns off inside my head..
Relax and Take Notes Pictures, Images and Photos
no dont..

Ive been thinking, all spoken or written communication should be conducted in similes and metaphors. Like for example: you wouldn’t be able to say, "I’m dead tired from lack of sleep." You’d say, "I feel like alcohol is pouring out of me by the gallon." Or instead of saying, "This is the happiest day of my life," you’d say, "I’m a pink bunny, frolicking on a grassy hillside in the morning sun." Human interaction would be a whole lot more fun this way, and there’s the added bonus that no one would know what anyone else was saying. Rarely is anybody else worth listening to anyway.
Talking Pictures, Images and Photos
I’ve also found out that there’s nothing fun about "fun size" candy bars. One bite…Gone! What could be less fun? I think they should rename the little candy bars to "person who is not hungry size" and make a totally new -- big -- size of candy bar they could call "fun." We’re talking a Twix the size of a loaf of bread, here. Now that is fun!
dont need you need chocolate
and make it full size please :)

As a matter of fact, I think candy should be free. The state should fund free candy dispensers which would be attached to all street lights, signposts, and parking meters in the nation. In fact, a dumptruck full of sugar products should be plunked on each person’s front lawn on a daily basis. They should supply so much free candy that people wouldn’t want to steal any -- there wouldn’t be the need. This could only help the economy, as the state would maintain a constant flow of money into the candy business, which would mean tons of new jobs. And it would mean fewer medical emergencies for diabetics who abruptly realize their blood-sugar level is dangerously low -- there would always be a confectionary remedy on hand.
I know right?! I really just don’t see how this could go wrong.

Yeah so…the weirdest thing…I think I turned into myself this morning. But I’m not sure. I certainly don’t feel any different.
water jump

I wonder what would happen if we pronounced silent letters and not the letters that aren’t. It might be fun!
illusion just saying...

Why can people NOT drive. This morning I was at a red light behind one other car. All the while, this guy was inching out, more and more, into the intersection, as if going really slow through a red light is ok. Eventually the other cars had to swerve around him to get by, but he seemed oblivious. But wait, there’s more. When the light finally turned green, he didn’t budge an inch. I had to honk to get him to move. I don’t have to tell you what I think of this.
Ha..yeah right.  Atleast they'd know how to drive.

Hit up the MOG (atleast that’s what I think the kids are calling it these days) the other day, aka Mall of Georgia, and I get so frustrated every time I go because it is so ridiculously packed out, it makes me not ever want to go again. I still do though, go figure. I think a new law should be passed barring short cars from pulling too far into parking spaces, thus causing the optical illusion of a free parking space for people cruising down the lot looking for them. It would make life a lot better in my opinion.

I think I’m going to register the domain No one will ever be able to type it in without cutting and pasting the text.
im sorry Pictures, Images and Photos
...yeahhhhh, i'm really not. 

I run into my coffee table at home all the time. It sucks. So I’ve come to the conclusion that coffee tables serve two vital functions. They house magazines no one reads, and they trip you. Why do these units of furniture exist? I’m convinced no one actually likes them; I think people buy them just because they somehow became a mandatory living room component. Now if only I can get my wall mounted chair idea accepted into the standard furnishing convention, I’ll be a zillionaire.

Speaking of magazines...
What is it with magazines? If you take a magazine, hold it by the binding, and shake it around, more pages will fall out of it than not. This is because these pages are "inserts." Once upon a time, somebody thought it would be a good idea if certain parts of a magazine weren’t physically attached to the rest of it. I think I’m going to pay this person a visit with a razor blade in the middle of the night and turn all the pages in all his books into "inserts" and see how he likes it.
The pile of magazines by my bed, 2 Aug 2005 Pictures, Images and Photos
Oh how I cant stand you...stack of useless, colorful, loose, paper.  Yeah I said it.

You know what blows...when you are riding down the on...and you hear a great song...and you think to yourself...YES I LOVE THIS SONG! You turn it up only for a slap in the face when the station goes nuts and all you here is static over the really good tune that you wanted to hear.
 Which makes me love my iphone and music playlists even more.
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..but I wont because I'm probably still trying to hear the song. Radio is dead.

Change:  Cant live without going through it, and just about kills you when its happening.  Leave me alone for awhile change.
so yeah..lay off for awhile yo!

I've decided I love Hippies. Maybe its because Ive always been one or maybe its because I'm was born in the wrong generation without a doubt...but its good people. Free at at mind...there's always good music involved and it's always chill. Why cant everyone just relax. forever.
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What ever happened to the golden rule ..."treat others how you want to be treated" ....
See I was taught this very early on...and for the most part I can honestly say I live by this saying. What is wrong with some people. For all you meanies out's called will get you. Mark my words.
And fortunately...

A thought on the weather lately...Good greif it's like serious global warming. Hope you paid attention in class back in the day. Cos it's happening. No doubt. And if you paid attention, please pass the notes.  Thanks!
Photobucket no its happening there too...

Found a new love for orbit gum recently. Definitly one of my favorites. When they come out with new flavors I wont lie, I get excited. They came out with this one called MINT MOJITO....ew....yeah...the excitement...well its dead now.. and so is orbit gum to me. 
gum Pictures, Images and Photos
What a disappointment..
I keep wondering how my puppy grew up so fast.  She's all grown up and is getting more sassy by the minute. She didn't get that from me and I'm not so sure that is acceptable yet. Its more than likely not.
Photobucket it even possible to train her at this point? I'm guessing no.

Sometimes I sit and ponder....Hahaha kidding...come on now...rarely do I ever actually sit and ponder thoughts. Psh, please, I cant even slow down the brain long enough to ponder anything.

On a brighter note though I’ve decided that I am in love with dryer sheets. I always used them and all...and I didn’t use them the last time I dried my clothes and seriously..maybe it was a mind set thing, I don’t know..but I could tell the difference. So never again will I ever leave out my little pieces of joy.
funny sign Pictures, Images and Photos

Are insurance agents robots? Think about it, with all the details that go into learning someone and their life just to write a policy with sufficient coverage... like, they know stuff... everything just about...and not even because they want to.
Well first handedly speaking, the answer is NO. we arent.  No we dont want to know about your divorce details, or if your kid is getting married, or about your dog, what you had to eat, or who you slept with last week. It doesnt effect your rate. We are not your friends, leave out the personal details..
 Be nice to your insurance agents... the job doesnt pay enough. Maybe save your stories for all the people who are already miserable in your life.  Probably from your stories.
Ugly Lies

I need to open a shoe store. All shoes would cost an arm and a leg. Then I’d only have to sell one shoe at a time, thereby doubling my already enormous profit margins.
Mean Pictures, Images and Photos
Dont be mad because you didnt think of it first.

I’ve decided the person who thought up the concept of the "gift certificate" was a devilish prankster.
Gift certificate: money you can only spend in one place. I fail to see how this idea improves our quality of life.
thats what im screaming...

Talk about appauling, someone at work went into my lunch bag the other day...I had a lunchable in know those little packets...with the individual crackers and cheese and turkey or ham or whatever your preference....
lunchable Pictures, Images and Photos
Yep, those things..
.. anyway I go to get the pack out and it was opened already with the little turkey slices eaten out of it. Everything else was left but not the turkey!! Who even does that?  Seriously?  Why not just take the whole thing. 
-I’m pretty sure it was the life insurance guy that comes in every once in awhile...I have a feeling.
Dont steal, its so not nice!
Nah..thats a little dramatic.

 I'm fairly sure that I have now wasted enough of my time and yours that we will never be able to get back with my thoughts.. ever.. so lets hope it was atleast worth it.

Til my head spins in circles again,